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(disclaimer: I'm not getting paid or anything to write about how amazing Jillian Michaels is. She's just that awesome.)

Well, I actually did it! I started and completed the 30 Day Shred! I have started it several times in the past but this month was the first time I actually did all 30 days in a row!
If you don't know, the 30 Day Shred is a Jillian Michaels' masterpiece. It is genius. She works with a 3-2-1 system, 3 minutes of strength, 2 minutes of cardio, 1 minute of abs. Repeat 3 times. It's so so good. It's exhausting, frustrating, sometimes curse-inducing, but overall awesome.
Jillian knows what she's doing. There are 3 levels and each level has 3 circuits. Each circuit is harder than the last and the same goes with the levels. Only 20 minutes a day, 7 days a week. Easy, no matter how busy you are.
I have lost inches from every area and have toned up a lot!

I have now started her 6 week Six-Pack DVD and can't wait for the results! This type of fitness really appeals to me. It's a set plan. I know that every morning after I drink my coffee I am going to work out. No matter what. This DVD might be harder because it's 35 minutes to the Shred's 20, but I know I can do it. Neely likes to "work out" with me and even when she's in my way it's easy to move around the room to dodge her.

2012 is a year of looking exactly how I want to and for getting fit and strong. It's a year of NO EXCUSES. How often have you made excuses for not working out? I have done that for years. Jillian Michaels takes any viable excuse away because it's *only* 20 or 30 minutes. Everyone has that.

I've also been using My Fitness Pal online and on my iPhone. It's GENIUS. It is a free calorie counter. It is so easy because when you eat something, you can scan the barcode from your app and it inputs all info for you! 

Seriously, getting in shape has never been so easy!
(except my aunt made this to-die-for cake and I had two pieces...oops!)

How about you? Have you been getting in shape lately?

22 Months!



In two short months my little newborn will turn two. I cannot believe it.

10 Things I Love About Being A SAHM

Linking up with
  Top Ten {Tuesday}
(in no particular order)


|one| seeing Neely every second of her life.
|two| naptime! (for me)
|three| having time to exercise (30 Day Shred).
|four| having dance parties every day with Neely.
|five| being here when Brett comes home for lunch.
|six| daily beach trips in the summer.
|seven| being able to go anywhere anytime because I don't have a boss to answer to.
|eight| not feeling overwhelmed with house work (usually. or theoretically!).
|nine| not missing any of Neely's firsts.
|ten| being able to spend time with my parents when they're in town.

Rough

This is uncharacteristically honest. I'm usually pretty honest but not about things concerning motherhood or marriage. I don't believe in airing your dirty laundry but in this case? Yes. It shall be aired.

Today Brett was sick all day. He was in bed until early afternoon and I finally dragged him out of the house. All morning Neely was spirited (cute) and loud (cute). Then she skipped her nap. She was in her crib and didn't sleep. Even though her eyelids were heavier than bricks.
We went to the mall and went to Victoria's Secret. With all of the working out I've been doing my boobs were the first to go and I needed a new bra. Brett OFFERED to buy me a new bra at VS!! So we went and brought Neely (disaster for Brett). She had a meltdown there. She had a meltdown in Anthropologie (where I only look because there is NO way I could afford that place!!).
Then I needed to go to Target because I needed another copy of the 30 Day Shred (mine is scratched right in the middle of Level 3). I told Brett to stay in the car because he needed to rest due to his sickness. I told him Neely & I would be fine.
Here's where my laundry gets aired.
Neely was running around like an out of control animal.
When I'd try to hold her hand she'd make her legs go weak.
I picked her up and she started yelling, "ALL DONE! ALL DONE! WALK! WALK!" over and over.
Cue every.single.person. in my vicinity staring at me.
Cue my urge to spank her or slap her. (I told you I was airing my dirty laundry.) I'm not proud of those thoughts but I'm 100% sure every mom has thought that before.
We made it to the top floor of Target and made a beeline for the workout DVD's and Neely started crying and whining loud for every object she saw.
"TELEPHONETELEPHONETELEPHONETELE-WORKOUTWORKOUTWORKOUTWORKOUT(dumbbells)SUNGLASSESSUNGLASSESNECKLACELECKLACEBRACELETBRACELET"
I kid you not.
My entire body was encased in sweat and panic and stress. I was not equipped for that kind of behavior. At all. I paid for my items and we found Brett in the parking lot and I vented. I didn't "punish" her because what the heck can I do??

And it terrifies me to my core for two reasons.
1. I fear that I'm allowing this monstrous behavior.
2. I'm afraid she'll hate me when she's a teenager.

I honestly had no idea what to do and I still don't.
We don't want to spank her. I've slapped her hand before when she's in danger or I've told her several times not to touch this or that, but full on spanking is not an option at this point. She's only almost 2. She's little. She's usually a peach. A dream. My heart.
She is my heart.
I just want to do right by her.
Today I failed and I need advice on how to handle this in the future.

thanks for your judgement free comments.
(I didn't re-read this because I don't feel like it. I feel like drinking wine and zoning out.)

still.

still I miss her.
still I cry.
it will be two months on the 19th.
it's been over two months since I saw her smile or the sparkle in her green eyes.
i miss you, grandma.

Grandma and Neely, 3/25/10

Grandma and Neely, Easter 2010

This pic kills me. We were just being so silly while cooking, Christmas 2008

Grandma on the left, her bff (until the day she died) on the right. circa 1946

13 in 3

A blog I read is doing her own little challenge for the next three months. I love goals and lists so I am joining in!



Pacifier.

When Neely was a newborn she didn't like pacifiers. When she was about six weeks old she began crying constantly and nothing would help her. We bought four different brands of pacifiers until we found one that worked for her and it was...magic.
I LOVE PACIFIERS.
There, I said it.
It is so frowned upon by everyone from your over-opinionated family members to the stranger in the grocery store. People have opinions on pacifiers and damned if you're not going to hear them!
I have heard it ALL but to those people I say SCREW YOU, I like my baby/toddler peaceful and quiet thank you very much!
That being said, the time has come to ease Neely away from her pacifier. If you've ever looked at any pictures in my blog you know that her pacifier is practically welded to her mouth, so this is no easy task.

Here is our plan starting today, January 1, 2012:
1. only let her have it at nap time or bedtime
2. eventually phase it out of #1. When/how we have no idea. We will cross that bridge when we come to it.

We aren't doing it for any other reason than we feel like it.

Moms, take heart in this post because I am 100% PRO PACIFIER! Don't listen to people's negative comments because are they the ones stuck listening to your screaming baby? Exactly.

Happy New Year!
I'll keep posting on the progress...today was strangely successful. Now, tomorrow when Brett goes back to work and I'm home with Neely and she's sobbing for her "pass"? That remains to be seen!